I just calculating how much I spent on transport for the past months and till Dec. $80 a month on transport. It alot la. Haiz. I want to pay student visa and insurance myself, I don’t want take from eryi, even I no money.
The money I have is just nice for transport, and left abit for other stuffs nia. I don’t want to tell eryi that I no money to pay, I can save to buy other things jiu can pay le. It good time to on diet. Haha. If really can slim down jiu hao le. Haha.
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6/29/09
Very xinku, often after meal, especially dinner will vomit, can vomit hai hao, can’t vomit xinku.
Adeline ate pig stomach today!!! Don’t like to eat but already ate.loL.
Tomorrow had an appointment with a Doctor at 10am to know blood test result.
I don’t want take antibiotic tablets!!! :( Hate takes medications.
Antibiotic medications have to finish the whole course, if not in future the body will resistance to antibiotic.
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6/28/09
Today is my Dear and me together de anniversary. 2 years and 6 months le. Miss him very much. If I put more effort, study much harder, understand the topic instead of memories by now I am in Singapore not in Australia.
I can and able to pass this coming semester on 13 July 2009. Won’t just say say nia, will do it with action and I MUST pass. =)
Days without dear, really very xinku, almost like in the darkness. Thanks Dear for waiting for me. this is the last chance for me to study well, if I fail again there no route for me to go anywhere.
NO dear, no trust, no care, no love, no concern, no family = EOL
Dear I love you and miss you very much
Tonight dinner had pizza and Rojak, recall the days Dear and I order 2-3 times rojak. I will eat the cucumber because dear don't eat and I don't eat pineapple .Dear eat green apple. still ask Rojak stall aunty give more you tiao. That time I still blur blur de, ask dear Rojak got green apple de meh? haha. Tell dear I want less peanut, dear said sotong gal, Rojak put many peanut den nice.
Really miss dear very much. :'(
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6/24/09
Yesterday went school about 8am till 4pm. The whole morning I have to do something, afternoon den exam. Reach home late, kanna say the whole morning and afternoon didn’t finish exam? I don’t want to tell them what I done in the morning, otherwise uncle and aunty going to change what they have told me.
I HATE LIVING IN A PLACE WHERE NO PUBLIC TRANSPORT, MUST WAIT TILL THEY ARE FREE, GO WORK DEN CAN DRIVE ME OUT. ARGH.... TODAY EXAM CLOSE AT 4PM. 2PM DEN REACH SCH. WHAT THE...
WHO WILL UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL? NO ONE!!! CAN YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE? I DON’T WANT TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT STUDIES. KEEP ALL TO MYSELF.
WEATHER SO COLD, OPEN WINDOW ABIT, YOU WENT TO OPEN VERY BIG. NOW COLD LIAO.
GOT EXAM, YOU ALL MAKE SO MUCH NOISE, HOW TO CONCENTRATE?
YOU THINK THAT EXAM IS EASY, OK FINE, IT EASY. I WILL SAY WHATEVER YOU TO LISTEN.
THIS IS THE ROUTE THAT I CHOOSE, SO KEEP EVERYTHING TO MYSELF. L
WILL ANYONE ANWEI ME?
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6/23/09
Had Legal and Ethics computer exam, told Eryi family that I need to take exam from Monday to Wednesday. Monday test some chapters, Tuesday some and Wednesday some. In the end Monday only took 1 chapter, Tuesday 2 chapter.
Eryi and biao ge asked, Exam can take separate and go in and out when exam? I told them, computer exam is open for days, can go take some chapters 1 day and some chapter another day till exam close. They thought I can go see exam questions, don’t know go out and see answer and go back for exam again. Rather open book test better?
Eryi said, If this don’t pass. Really don’t know what to do le. Only LEGAL AND ETHICS RESIT can take separately. Talk like exam so easy. Ya, your sons smart ma, all graduate from university de.
Why always I have exam de time make me no mood study?loL. Before exam ask me call my mum, brothers. Fan AR. Can let me concentrate not.
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6/20/09
Eryi said my mum ligament surgery is shoulder not hand, haiz. I didn’t ask clearly. She asked if I know how to cook for my mum and do housework? I know how to do housework but I don’t know how to cook, if i know how to cook jiu won't everyday lunch eat instant noodle. she said if I am not confident that I can pass this coming semester den don’t waste money.
mummy want borrow money from ah yi for August 28 de shoulder surgery. But ask mummy she said in the end no need le. I think that eryi want me to go back Singapore look after my mum and give up studies here. this is what I guess nia.
Argh. Brothers don’t even care mum, what can I do? Called erge, he said will be alright de, he will cook or buy food for mummy. He always use mouth to say but no action.
Dage money face.
Called Xiao ah ge he said he need to work, his wife say don’t know later if she cook not shi he mummy de taste, coz she good at cooking Indonesia food. I said cook plain porridge with veg or meat, cook once and tahan 1 whole day lo. haha. She said will tell xiao ah ge to look after mummy. After called xiaoah ge and dear,called mummy, she said xiao ah ge just called to ask her about the surgery.
My mummy said to me don’t worry, she will alright de, after surgery, just need to hospitalize for 2 days. I ting her back, after surgery, stay at home no need eat, drink and bath ar? Pain tahan and make it more worst? Den rather don’t go surgery. den heard her crying.
Haiz... nothing I can do.
I am confuse, can't concentrate study, wanna cry, headache, pressure !!!!!!!!!!!
why left me suffer alone?
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6/19/09
MISSING HIM (DEAR) :(
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18 and 19 June 2009
Thanks Yeo wei helped me change blogskin and teach me how to add these and that.
Thank you so much =D
19 June 2009
I had night mare last night! I went to a building saw many strong guys and 1 women. The women order them not to let me out of the building. The women order me do this and that. I shout for help but no use, want to use hp call for help but hp batt low. Few days later the women ask me go out buy food but ask his security guard to follow me. I asked people around if got sell food not coz the women ask me buy, and i whisper to them “help”. But they all thought I am crazy. Saw dear, I show a ke lian face, and shout help. But dear walk away. Soon Dear came and rescue =D. I thought dear don’t help me le.
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If understand me, may be know what I am referring to about the night mare. =)
Ah yi called Eryi today around SG 6pm. They said: “Adeline should go back look after her mum because no one taking care of her mum now”. My da ge and xiao ah ge move out le, left erge and my papa living with my mummy. Brothers moved out le means, they won’t care of parents much le because they have MOVE OUT. Idiot right. Actutally still got erge girlfriend can look after my mummy but they break up le.Erge can’t even take care himself properly, na li ken en look after mummy?
Eryi and Ah yi said ke lian de is Adeline mum, no one care and look after her now and coming operation in August. They said: that why I told Adeline this coming July if she don’t pass, she must go back Singapore, Her mum have so many diseases, still got hand and knee need operation. Got so many money let her waste? Eryi said, I don’t understand her mum thinking, why don’t study in Singapore?
Me: if who that suggest my mum to want me come here study de? If you never talk about it. Will she think about it?
Adeline is confuse!!!!!!!!!!
Adeline, the best thing is don’t care and think so much! Worry so much but nothing you can do!
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Afternoon read dear fren blog de shout out, dear wrote at her “shout out” and she reply too. Don’t know why feel like crying and sian sian. But I didn’t cry, tell myself. Go study so won’t think so much.
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6/18/09
17 June 2009
Called my mummy she said, she going surgery coming August because she fell and break her hand ligament.
I change my msn nick to my www.adelineang-story.blogspot.com for about 5 mins, after 5 mins I change back to my Adeline. Saw Richard (da biao ge) online, don’t know he will go view my blog not. Hope not.
Eryi called Richard to cook rice, den I ask him can I cook 1 dish for tonight dinner? But I am not sure if Uncle and Aunty buy any food back. He asked me to call Uncle and Aunty but I don’t want, so in the end I didn’t cook. Ricky ( er biao ge) girlfriend came back and asked me to chop garlic. I knew when they come back they will say “Adeline why you didn’t cook? Most free is you. Stay at home the whole day but didn’t cook? Got maid for you here ar? When Ricky came back he really said these. I reply “I want to cook but I don’t dare to call to ask if buy any food back.” IT REALLY TRUE THAT I WANT TO COOK BUT I DON’T KNOW IF ANYONE BUY FOOD BACK. Is this consider excuse that I don’t want to cook? Why always just want me to answer yes or no? Don’t let me explain? Since you want to know one answer right. Ok. I am LAZY to cook. This is the answer that you want to hear right! Even it not the truth.
Dinner time, I ate pig oil!!!! I never eat pig oil in my life before. now no choice I have to eat. I will eat the food that I don’t like, will automatic take the meat myself, no need you all to “SERVE” me. I don’t want to make people life xinku. I rather I make myself xinku than make others xinku.
Ate duck brain!!! Richard said I ate meat drink water = can’t taste the meat. The meat taste so good, give Adeline eat wasted. Why people words are like needles?
I will talk during dinner, will join the conservation. Eat the food even I don’t like. Don’t understand why people will have so bad attitude. Haiz.
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6/16/09
Dear called today, so happy dear called. Been 3 weeks dear called. Surprise when I told him my xinshi, I didn't cry. Haha. I told dear, did you notice everyday I only sms you once, didn't email u because I am scared to make you fan. Because that day I called you kang hao you busy, you ask me not to fan you and hang up the phone. Since that day I am afraid to talk to him.
He said, I can email him my xinshi but he only reply important things, can sms him.
Suddenly he talk about Eoin, Jason. He said if it Eoin, he sure won't want you, no cert, owe people money. ( I add: who will want no cert, no job, still owe people money de girlfriend?) if it Jason, may be he will want.
Suddenly talk about Eoin and Jason which I have forgotten them. Normally, he don't like me to talk about the guys, even their name. Now suddenly he talk about them. What this mean? Mean that I choose to give up ITE course because I said once that after ITE, i got the job what will I do? Repair car? Actually after ITE, if can go higher nitec, go polytechnic, can be like advise people to buy the car instead of repair. But now 1 and half year le, didn't get certificate in Australia. Lose the chance to go higher nitec in Singapore, owe people lots of money.
Tonight to presentation on Digestive system, because they need to discuss their stuffs. Almost everyday during dinner time, Eryi and Ricky will quarrell related to me because if I didn't talk during dinner time or didn't answer his questions have to eat meat. Eryi will help me eat some. Den Ricky start saying to eryi that "why you help her eat" bla bla bla. Roderick said you auto take meat eat, Ricky and Eryi jiu won't quarrell le right. So next time even I don't like to eat meat, have to force myself to eat and after that drink plenty of water.
People eat more rice and less water, but I am the opposite.
Today talk to dear about 1 and half hour with dear, I am very happy. Thanks dear. Although talk about someone that I am afraid that one day will really together with her.
Adeline Ang Keng Yin you must study hard, this is the last chance for you. If don't bao wo chance, no matter cry until very jia lat, no one will ke lian ni de. Even want go work as cleaner, collect rubbish NO ONE will want YOU too. want to find anyone jiu marry? Wait long long forever don't have. Who will want a no cert, owe people money, don't know how to do housework, don't know look after children, can't even take care of yourself, can't find job coz no cert, so skills de wife?
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6/13/09
3 June 2009
Dear chat with me in msn on his birthday. I am very happy, It the happiest day since I told him my exam results. Really very happy. Today dear update his blog, he went chalet with family. How I wish I can suddenly appear to surprise him, but I can’t.
These days da biao ge want me to Anatomy and Physiology. Test me 1 system a day. If I didn’t answer his questions, next day continue with next system. Means I have to revise the system that I didn’t understand fully plus a new system. Today was Respiratory system, I focus on Respiratory system but not the rest system. Da biao ge and xiao biao ge teach me till about 9 plus at night. The next day da biao ge still need to work, eryi standing beside, keep remind da biao ge that he need to work. Da biao ge said that he want me make you when he ask me what is example skeletal system, I can say all the basic about skeletal system.
Tomorrow planning to go school to collect a letter from Claire to extend my visa, buy some stuffs. Thinking if I should cancel and stay at home study for the next system or go out? If I go out, I can’t study the whole day.
8 June 2009
Yesterday had dinner with aunty and uncle at restaurant. It common to eat in restaurant here. The boss get along with aunty and uncle well because we often go to her restaurant to eat. Yesterday only aunty, uncle, their eldest son, me and the home stay guy. Total 5 of us. The boss asks aunty and uncle who are us? They said the guy is their eldest son, Uncle said the 2 is home stay. I am thinking I am not home stay, why don’t want to say it relative? There should be a reason behind, why he said that.I think the reason is I failed this semester.
Weeks ago, biao ge had surgery, aunty, uncle and me had drinks at PA hospital star buck coffee. Aunty said she called my mummy, told her my situation, that I failed bla bla bla. Aunty suggest me go back Singapore and earn the money, use the time to think If I should really continue Diploma of Nursing or go other course in Singapore, but my mummy said I go back Singapore work as waitress or other low class jobs?
Uncle start talking to me, your parents sell pork is also low class, beg people to buy pork. If I talk to your mummy he said he will say that.
Yesterday aunty and uncle said if I know your situation in Singapore I won’t ask you to come here study. They are pushing the entire fault to my mummy.
From the start I insist don’t want to come Australia, I know it difficult for me to study nursing course because I don’t have the foundation. The 2nd time I didn’t go airport to take the flight to Australia, you slap me so hard that my spec need to repair.
Years ago, eryi and uncle came to visit you, I told the truth in front of them. The first time you slapped me because I told the truth. The 2nd slapped is slap till me spec need to repair.
Do you know what people say in front and behind you? Blaming you? You still believe even it not the fact. People who treat you good, you say they are bad, people say nice word to you but at your back, blaming you, you jiu trust them.
I want to prove not only your sons is smart, can make it. Not once fail, forever a failure. I will use more time and effort to prove you are wrong!!!
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